I have done relatively little-to-none updating on my website and social networking sites lately and I'd like to explain. I am currently living between Arizona and North Carolina as my father was diagnosed last September with advanced stomach cancer that had already moved into his bones by the time the doctors caught it. I decided to take what has become a series of extended stays in NC in order to help my parents through this difficult time. I'm spending anywhere from 2-6 weeks at a time in NC and then going back to AZ for 1-3 weeks to take care of my life there. Dad was told on New Years Eve that his cancer has become too aggressive for the chemo treatments and that now it's all about keeping him comfortable and calling in hospice when the time comes. I am very close with my parents and as I'm sure you can imagine, I'm devastated. The fact that I'm a medium and can communicate with Spirit helps a great deal but in no way diminishes the pain, sadness, and feelings of emptiness that this situation brings. Mediums are humans first; we are not spared experiencing the range of emotions (including the fear-based ones) that everyone else experiences. Some people have asked if I have foreseen my fathers day or time of passing or other details pertaining to his health and the short answer is, no, I have not (and frankly, wouldn't want to). One of the key elements to seeing things for others with second Sight is objectivity. I have to be completely detached from the person I'm reading and as soon as I throw my personal agendas or desires for their outcome into the mix, the reading becomes muddled and less clear. And of course there is always free will at work with each individual so futures can always change anyway. Being detached doesn't mean that I don't care; I care very much for each client I read and pray that the information coming through has abundant benefit for them but I'm unattached to their outcome. I know that everyone is responsible only for their own choices and I have no control; I'm simply a messenger. Having this kind of objectivity with loved ones may not be impossible but I certainly don't have it. I can't help but have an agenda for their growth and healing even though I know in my heart that I can only support their journey, not direct it. Therefore, I don't "see" things for family, friends, and loved ones. Another thing I've been asked is, "How can you do readings for others when you're in such an emotionally difficult space in your life?" The answer is that I can do so very well because helping others is a welcome distraction from feeling powerless in this situation with my father. It helps to know that there is something I can do to help someone; plus, I know my Dad would be more upset to know that his illness was keeping me from my important work (he is very dutiful!). I was designed to care for others, so conducting readings is generally not a problem when I'm under emotional stress. In fact, readings are a welcome reprieve as I get to leave my stuff at the door before going into a reading! If my emotional state becomes an issue, I recognize it and reschedule my appointments. I know that one can only care for others when they are at their own best so I've become quite adept at making sure my own needs are taken care of. As of right now, my Dad is doing well! Once the doctors told him that their medicines had reached the limit of what they could do, he decided to take the advice of his wacky holistic-minded daughter and start a regime of taking herbal medicines. I'm happy to report that within two weeks of starting the herbs, his jaundice went away and he is now walking 2 miles a day and planning his next golf outing when the weather clears up. I don't know for sure if he will release the cancer completely but I am so grateful that he has been able to get some of his quality of life back! I have received many prayers and much support from friends, family, and clients in this difficult time; thank you so much, everyone! Your continued prayers and support are a continued blessing; I treasure each of you

In Light,
Jaena